Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Lessons Learned

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

feeeeeeeelings.......nothing more than feelings?

No matter what becomes of this possibility I now have lain at my feet I am sure that a new phase of my life is beginning. I can't necessarily explain exactly why I say this but deep inside of me I have a feeling that just wont quit; it's almost as if an evolution is taking place within me causing me to feel as though things are different, very different. At a simple glance nothing has apparently changed either in my life or in my surroundings yet for some reason I just know that there is a new wind blowing through me and this breeze is both comforting and a cause of excitement.

I have always known or felt that some changes that have occurred in my life have been a result of my own doing whether they were good OR bad but I can't seem to lay claim to this particular feeling at all. Please don't misunderstand me, I don't have to have a responsibility for this feeling nor do I have to know exactly how it came about or why, I'm just grateful that it's here and I'm even more grateful that my mind has allowed me to envision it. I will happily let whatever is down the pike unfold before me and truly look forward to the days ahead with anticipation.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Well, today I received the phone call I've been waiting for. Just a few months ago I had begun being recruited by a firm that appeared to be interested in my employment. As you know, not quite a year ago I had decided to quit working and for my own sanity labeled it as retirement. In effect it was a retirement of sorts since I had no intention of going back into the industry that I have spent a good time of my career pursuing yet things are again changing in my life and I have recently found myself with too much free time on my hands. I can't be absolutely sure that I want to continue in this field but at the moment no better idea has presented itself.

Over the course of the past few weeks I have been in contact with a Funeral Home and tomorrow I go to my second face to face meeting or interview if you will and am seriously considering accepting the position if the offer is right (if there even is an offer). I know I'm more than capable of handling all aspects of the position and feel it will afford me with both something to occupy my time as well as some money and both of these things can always be used. Some of the most fulfilling times of my life involved directing funerals for families that I had met through the arrangement conference and I'm actually looking forward to the possibility of that once again being a part of my life but in all honesty time will tell.

So, for the time being wish me luck and please hope as I do that whatever comes of this, either good or bad appearing, it turns out to be something that truly puts a foot in front of the other for me; this is what I feel I need the most right now - to continue moving - to continue living and being a productive human being. I'll update this as I know more!