Friday, November 21, 2008

Riddle me this

Is it because no one has died recently? Is it because I no longer have anything worth saying? Is it because my life has been so hectic lately that I haven't had the time to write? Or is it perhaps that I just haven't had any motivation to write?

Well, the answer to these questions is pretty straightforward and easy. Yes, of course people have died recently, I hope that I still have plenty in me left to say, my life has NOT been too hectic to write and I have had enough time, which leaves motivation. Yes motivation, or should I say lack of.

There have been days when I felt like there was something that I needed to write down, something to say and off I go to my computer and sit there....and sit there....and sit there....and not a damned word can be produced from my mind; even though there is something specific that I want to write about. This has become troubling to me.

I have always enjoyed writing to some degree but it has always been in spurts. I can remember when I was younger (and I still hold onto the paper to prove it) I wrote poetry, short stories, I even have a few so called novels still unfinished which I may someday complete. Right, someday. What I don't, can't, understand is how I can go from writing on a daily basis in between the rest of my life to not writing at all.

If it weren't for the few blogs that I visit that offer writing prompts I don't think I would be writing anything right now, literally nothing. I'm doing my best not to abandon the two blogs that I have, I even tried to start a new one in hopes that there would be some motivation there but that didn't work either.

All I can say is that I will continue to try; hell, I enjoy it when I produce some words. I have one of those counters on my site and I see that there are still a faithful few of you who continue to check in to see if I am alive or dead but that's waning too. I only wish I knew where to begin...perhaps this is the start...we'll see.