Sunday, August 15, 2010


Can't walk without bumping into something, can't try to stop walking without overstepping my goal, this stupid arm is tingly on and off, my ankles are swollen, and I wont be able to get in touch with my doctor until tomorrow. I stumble around like I'm drunk or something. The arm has been going on for years and it's been mentioned to more than one doctor yet it was either brushed off or refuted; this time it's all going to be addressed and corrected one way or another. My arm is probably a pinched nerve but the dizziness is relatively new; not even 2 weeks but it seems to be getting progressively worse and has become a real concern.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

August Already?

I'm sure you've heard that time goes by quicker the older you get, or at least it appears that way; I have. As a matter of fact I can remember conversations as a kid when I was told by an adult that I shouldn't wish my life away. I guess most kids at some time or another wish they were older for whatever reason in the hopes that their life would be better. I can only vouch for me but when I was young I had no idea how good life was and that aging simply added confusion and responsibility.

The fact that a young persons time seems to be sweeter to an adult and an adult persons time seems more valuable to a young person is typical. It's the "grass seems greener on the other side" syndrome even though we know that's not always the case. Whatever, it feels as if just yesterday was the beginning of this year when actually we have already completed 7 months with only 5 left.

I guess what I'm getting at is that for the past 7 months I've really done nothing to make either my life or the world a better place and yet I still sit back and wonder why I'm in the position I am, why time is aimlessly flying by and what is it's purpose. The answer is pretty simple; I'm sitting exactly where I'm sitting because whether consciously or not, this is what I've chosen to do and the way that I perceive time comes from within...So...If I think the world is flying by and I'm stagnantly sitting here doing nothing about it...guess what's my own doing. And if I want that situation to change...guess what will have to be my own doing.